Wednesday, December 16, 2009

To save the children and myself

On Sims I am creating a world. I am building a small pier next to the ocean but it looks more like a bridge that i then build a house there instead. Tina creates a little girl. She is her child. I create a little boy and then he is real. I am charge of this little boy about 4 or 5 years old. I am not very skilled but somehow I am a part of this secret organization. There is this group that is after the little boy and wants to kill him. They are out to kill me. I run through our warehouse and nobody is able to stop them.

~dream skip~ They have taken the little boy and I am hurt, but not bad (maybe a bump on the head or scratch on the leg or my arm pulled out of socket but now back together....dream didn't tell me) I run after them and there is this lady with evil eyes and a hatred that can not be matched. Her blond hair is butchered short and she is fast and skilled.

~dream skip~ I have the boy in my arms. I will not lose him again. I am driving, then running.

~dream skip~ Somehow I made it to the warehouse alive. Many of the people chasing me have been killed, except for the lady with the evil aura. I'm running, calling for any help I can get, but nobody comes. There are two other guys chasing me as well.

~dream skip~ I killed the two guys somehow and still have the child in my arms. The lady is gaining on me. I rush to the stairs. I just have to get to the top where the head of the organization is. I have to get the boy there and he will be safe. I get to the top and he is dead. My entire organization has been wiped out with only the boy and myself. The lady is gaining on us and I realize I have little time left...

~dream skip~ I am in another organization. One that doesn't listen to me or share vital information that applies to me personally. It's like I don't exist. The boy I had watched earlier in the dream had been adopted to a good home and he is safe. I am put in charge of another child, only not in person. I am ordered to watch the surrounding area and report any and everything that seems important.

~dream skip~ There have been deaths. My child. This other guys child. Then other deaths, I can tell that they are all connected. No one will listen to me. I am figuring things out and working secretly on the "case". When aquiring a unique piece of information I decide to share it with my boss. "All of the case files end in 89" I say. "How do you know that?" He asked accusing. "I've been finding stuff out, I haven't done anything wrong. I didn't go into any forbidden rooms or locked files..." He shakes his head and lets me know that under no uncertain terms was I to continue in this search. "I know it's about me. Whoever this is, is out to scare me and get me." He waved me off and I stomp away. I agree to watch Debbie's kids, what else could I do. I am at the old house, but it is different, still two story but not quite as huge. I am given my own room on the right hand side of the second floor. Someone is up there with me, she is talking to me about the "case", I tell her that I've added up the days and that in three days it will have been 89 days. "what will happen then?" She asked. I shrugged. Then I go back into the room and lock the door so the kids wont walk in while I'm changing. A woman steps out of the closet. "You don't remember me." she said as a statement. "I had hoped your new leash would prevent you from figuring it out this far. I'd rather wait the three days, but I can't have them figuring things out. It looks like I have to kill you now." We fight like crazy. I kick the knife out of her hand. She has a cord to strangle me with. I rush around this cart in the middle of the floor to get to the door. I am shouting, "Don't kill me. She's in here." She turns and runs to the window. I chase after her. I was not about to let her get away. Her feet hang out by the window as she is pulled up into a helicopter. I leap out the window, grabbing on to her legs, hoping to weight her down and prevent her from escaping. Instead we both get pulled up. There is a scattering of followers sitting in the back area of the copter. I had seen each of them at least once during my attempts to figure out the "case". "Looks like I can wait" she smiled. I'd been captured. I tried to cause discontent and suspicions by talking to her rag tag following of a crew but it didn't work.

~dream skip~ I am in the back of a car now, surrounded by the crew while the woman is driving. I try to nonchalantly look out the window and mouth help me. No body notices. Once we enter another state the authorities will be unable to help me or save me. I see a cop and she looks over but I can't tell if she notices or not. We slip through the check point upon leaving California and there is a lodge with arcade games and food and such. It is so tempting that the woman pulls over and we go inside. It's like a real version of a tourist trap. It draws you and keeps you there with free arcades, prizes and only needing to pay for the food. I walk to the back and am left alone. The are watching me and if I try for the doors or windows I'll be in trouble. Not that it matters since in another two days she will kill me anyways. I play an arcade game that wins me free guacamole that is simply dumped into the toy receiving area. not sanitary or appetizing at all. I get an old pizza box and scoop out the guacamole. I begin eating it and this boy says..."you get a coupon for free guacamole at Wenchell's. But it's not really all that good." I notice that nobody is watching me at the moment. I wonder if I can slip up to the window to be seen. I'm trying to slowly make my way to the lodge window...I hear cop sirens in the distance...~wake up~

(upon waking I realize that the cop did recognize me. Actually had been expecting us to go this way and the lodge was an expensive trap laid out right before the border.)

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Escape from the skeletons

I am watching a friends house. I have made a new account to be able to play the video games without changing her account. Only, I made the account on the third day and did play on her account the first two days. I forgot to feed the fish for 4 days and raced around to make sure they all had food. The fish were starving.

~dream skip~ I am at the house I am watching, with Tina. I see these posters and I'm going through them when I see one that belongs to Tina. I show it too her and she freaks out. "I destroyed that one" Immidiately I feel bad, like it's my fault. I look at the pictures on the poster and they look amazing. I couldn't understand her response. A part of me wants to destroy the poster for her sake and a part of me wants to hide it and keep it.

~dream skip~ I am with a group of people, some of them kids. We are trapped in a room with only one door in or out and there are skeleton warriors after us. We hear the banging on the door and know that soon they will break in and we will be dead. I see a vent up top and quietly direct everyone, the youngest first, into the vent and we crawl for a ways before I decide it's far enough to drop back down into the hall. We run through the maze and then after a short time begin to hear the skeleton warriors coming up behind us. There is this huge room with glass doors that I run up to trying to open. The doors are locked...

~dream skip~ We are now running down a familiar hall with the skeletons right on our heels. I get everyone in and lock the door. We are in the same room we had just escaped from...

~dream skip~ Somehow we had gotten out of that room because now we are in a huge open space with a parking lot streched out in front of us and lots of people all around. We hide in the crowd as people scream. The skeletons had shown up and multiplied from a small dozen to hundreds and they kept pouring out. I looked around and my small group was gone. What were we going to do. I made myself visible in the chaos to the skeletons and they charged in my direction. I then heard a strange sound and turned to look behind me, knowing that it was a dumb move to take my eyes off of the skeleton warriors. What I saw was a wall of flame coming towards me rapidly. I ran towards the parking lot, towards the fire and squezed myself between two large vehicles, crouching next to the tires. The fire wooshed by. I get out from between the cars and notice that a lot of people had dropped to the ground on their knees, and the fire had gone over their heads, harmlessly. Many skeletons had been vaperized. The rest came after us when the sound of fire built up again and instictivly the people dropped to the ground face down. Some of the skeletons copied them and as the fire passed, those skeletons were spared. This happened three times total with the fire getting closer to the ground each time. After the third time there was only a scattering of skeletons left. People were cheering when all of a sudden a wall opened up and thousands of skeletons poured out, the leader laughing. People screamed and ran in every direction. I looked over my shoulder wondering where the wall of fire went. It was silent. I turned back, knowing there was no hope in surviving this many skeleton warriors. I faced them, amidst the screaming, panicking crowd and I know they saw me, but I also knew that they would slaughter anybody they came across on their way to me. I began walking towards the warriors, towards my death, when I heard it. The fire was coming from behind again and the skeletons were focused on me. If I remained standing they might not notice the fire until it was too late. People behind me had already dropped to the ground. I heard someone in the distance scream out my name. All of a sudden the skeleton leader noticed the fire and panicked running back through one of the many tunnel entrances, calling for someone to close the wall of a door, but most of the skeletons were oblivious. They had just one goal in mind and that was to kill me. I ignored the army racing down on me and simply stood there, listening to the roar of the fire, waiting until I could feel the heat on my back before I dropped to the ground. I didn't know how I did it but somehow I survived. Somehow I had been able to dodge the fire by sound alone although I would have a pretty nasty heat burn on my back for a while, but with the adrenaline rush I couldn't feel it. When I stood up the throne room was empty. The leader and skeletons had been destroyed. Then I noticed a few skeletons standing up. Some had been smart enough to avoid the fire. People were running away, hiding in the cars in the parking lot. One of the skeletons spoke to me. "We are no longer bound to our leader. We are no longer forced to kill you. You have spared us from the fire of death. We will not harm you." The skeletons sheathed their swords. I believed it and turned to tell the people that it was ok when one of the 6 skeletons standing behind me pulled out its sword. I heard the sound and dropped to the ground rolling to the side and jumping to my feet, now facing the skeleton. I had no time to wonder how I had been able to do that, there was a sword coming at me, lusting for my blood. I braced myself for a fight I knew I would lose when the remaining 5 skeletons attacked their "buddy" and disarmed it, impailing it on its own sword. One of them yelled, "the fire!" I grabbed a chunk of wood and ran up to the stage the skeleton leader had been on. There were curtains still burning. I pulled out some burning cloth and held it by the chunk of wood I was holding. I ran to the skeletons and jabbed it into the ribs of the one who had tried to kill me. The others had backed off, afraid of the fire. I then turned to the rest and they knelt on the ground. Each one pledged its life to serve me and I felt the power of it, I knew that they would serve me. My only question was why they would choose to pledge to me?
~wake up~

(a theory I have is that the skeleton warriors have to be pledged to someone and they can be forcibly pledged to follow a skeleton leader. Once the leader is dead they are free but with the freedom comes a price as to who they may end up being pledged to. They trusted me and made a pledge to not only spare their lives but to save them from slavery to a different type of master. Maybe there is even someone out there "recruiting" skeletons and they don't want to chance being pledged to him.)

Friday, December 11, 2009

Vigilante Leader, Trudy Lives and an SUV

There are three people who are standing by me in some type of incident. We are trying to escape and there is one person who has the ability to track us and find us. The first time we get up to this roof and the person catches us.

~dream rewind~ We are escaping, only everyone seems to remember the alternate ending that didn't happen, where we got caught. The person chasing us appears next to us as we are getting ready to split off. He says that he will catch us 'again' no matter how many times we go back in time. I tell him good luck and one of my now four members following me decides to join the "winning" side. Instead of us running wild I come up with a plan and become the leader, they all listen to me and I feel hope that we will get away.

~dream skip~ Trudy is found alive, but had lost most of her memory. She is going to relearn and relive her life with Monk. They decide that it is time to have a kid, she wants one with Adriane. She has special agent people who are with her all the time and each one has a specialty ability, which in the beginning of her pregnancy she abuses by having them get her stuff etc...

~wake up~

~new dream~ A girl is standing outside, when this black SUV barrles down the road and shoots the drivers side window in her car. Without thinking she leaps into the car and takes off after them. She had seen them turn right two streets down. Sitting on broken glass she races round the corner and catches a glimps of a car turning right. She swerves and turns and there they are. Tailing them she reads the license number. Immideately she pulls over and types the number into a text message window on her phone. The SUV had turned and was gone. She pulls out and heads back home when the SUV appears behind her and a gun is pointing out the passanger window straight at her. She turns left and presses the gas, speeding through stop signs. Her boyfriend is in his truck, trying to figure which way he should go to stop her and he sees her turn the other way followed by the SUV. He speeds out and tails the SUV which then pulls up next to her car, on the wrong side of the road, to force her off the road, the gun is again pointed at her. Then, all of a sudden red and blue lights flash. The car and truck pull over and the SUV takes off. When the officer walks up to her window the girl hands him her phone and said "They shot out my window and tried to run me off the road. This is their liscence number." With out knowing what happened, the cop radios in to have a couple officers track down the SUV. Then he turns to her to get the whole story.
~wake up~

Saturday, September 19, 2009

From potions to Wolves

I'm running through this building. It's a school, but all indoors. I was in the wrong class so I left. I know this building like the back of my hand, it's as if I'd been here before even though this was my first day attending. I glide down these stairs, my feet don't touch the ground. It's as if I'm sledding down on my belly, only my belly is a few feet from the ground. What class is down the stairs? It is Potions class. I am in the background now, watching this little girl who is lost. We are now right outside the basement class in a small courtyard. The girl sees a tall pipe with a triangular cap on it. She climbs up and in, hiding because the teacher heard something and was coming out to investigate. I whisper, "don't do it. That's not a good idea." But it is to late, there is not bottom to the hole and she falls down. she lands with a thud back inside, in a pot filled with soot.

Snape comes out and sees me. I distract him, talking and he doesn't notice the little girl still in the pot. We are walking and these wolves come up to me. One leaps up, with it's paws on my shoulders, trying to knock me down, so that he can eat me or maybe for the pack to eat me. I stand my ground under his massive weight. He drops to the ground, but tries a couple more times. One of the times I grasp his paws and bite his neck. Then I nip his ear and he drops to the ground.

Perrin (from Wheel of Time series) comes up. His eyes are golden and he walks in a half crouch, looking at me with hungry eyes. He turns to his wolves, as if they are mentally talking. Then he looks at me with different eyes.

I'm walking down a path with trees on either side and the wolves walk with me, only they are hidden through the trees. All except for the pack leader, the wolf who tried to knock me down. He walks beside me. ~wake up~

[Perrin is a human who embodies the attributes of the wolves. In the series he becomes a pack leader of a pack of wolves. He is able to communicate with them and is a strong fighter.]

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Simply a Quote

In my dream someone said, "My ACI limits will be tested since I'm going...with a girl I like." It was pretty random and I have no idea who was saying to to who. I just woke up and this quote was written on my notepad. I don't always remember writing down my dreams because it could be 3am or such, it's more a habit sometimes.

I'm trying to figure out what ACI stands for. I searched acronyms and the only possibility I came up with was "Area's of Common Interest" anything else was medical or technical or a different state. Strange and confusing.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Not remembering

I haven't been recording my dreams lately. I used to keep a pen and paper by my pillow and would jot things down when I awoke. Now I wake up, remember the dream and then roll over, telling myself that I wont forget. By the time I get up, I've forgotten. I did the same last night but remember a couple key concepts that I'm going to jot down anyways. [oh and I really need to be careful with drinking too much mountain dew. It's delicious and addicting, but not good for you.]

~dream~ Tina and I went in together on an appartment complex. (I really wish I remember this part because Tina would love to hear about it.)

I turned a castle into some other building, like city buildings or something and had this guy fooled but then something happened and the power wore off and you could see it for what it really is. [or maybe it was the other way around, other buildings into a castle, I don't remember)

The rest had to do with being a prisoner. Hunting down my brothers for some underground group. and I don't remember anymore.

[shame on me, I'm choosing extra sleep above my dreams and I'm still just as tired when I get up in the morning.]

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

My sister, the inventor

[Usually this is the part where I switch a real name for a fake one to protect the involved parties but mostly myself for having them in my dreams. This time I have to leave in the real name because I thought it was too awesome to ignore.]

My sister, Melanie, invented anti-gravity shoes (that's what she called them). She sent me the prototype to test out. They fit perfectly and worked as if they had been a part of me all my life.

~dream skip~ trapped in a crowded, mall sized, payless shoe store. It is chaotic and packed. I go to the front and take a key (metal tube that is used to free the shoes from the theft attachments.) from out of the register, it won't come out. I twist it and it opens the register. The manager comes up to me and I tell her that I didn't mean to open it. Then I have the key and I'm in the back corner of the store...

~dream skip~ I am in charge of these two teens since they were 12. They can't be alone until 18. They are now 17 and I am walking with them. This squirrel attacks me and bites the flesh of my arm. I'm walking again and the squirrel leaps out and bites the flesh of my face. Many times I am bitten, I keep a look out but each time it attacks once and then is gone.

~dream skip~ I am in this mansion type house with Melanie and my family. Melanie is there to show them her shoes. We have a large meal and then Melanie turns on the shoes and flips up onto the ceiling. She walks, does front flips, back flips and then runs a small circle on the ceiling right above the table. The guy is impressed. I am patiently waiting my turn but it is hard watching her with the shoes on, I want to show off, but I hold back. Melanie then hands me the shoes "Now for my sister. She's a natural and can show you more possibilities." I slip on the shoes and start tying the many ties and strapping the Velcro. When a sound is outside. The man of the house then turns into a panther and slips out. We are hiding out from a group and there were a couple of spies outside the window. The next day the headline on the front page is "Couple Mauled by large feline...a man and a woman seen walking down the street were viciously attacked..." I am still in the house with Melanie and she is curious about what the shoes can do. I show her how to hover, glide, walk walls and then I corner myself in the upper ceiling corner and point the shoes out diagonally with gravity pushing out, holding me in place and also acting as a shield. I ask Melanie to shoot me with an arrow, she pulls out her bow and shoots. The arrow gets halfway and then shoots back. ~wake up~

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Vigilante group to stop the evil

I'm with Tina we are at some kind of church and leave early because I am sick. Tina immediately lays down and goes to sleep. She is tired and I can't sleep now because someone has to stand watch. We are in this underground bunker type, I think it might be a small cave, there's a hall and then the cove that we are staying in. There is a huge double king size bed in the back cove. The hall opens into a main center with the bedroom cove through a small archway.

~dream skip~ I am in this building, it's like a huge research facility only empty except for this guy we are trying to kill. There are a number of people in my group and we are spread out. The problem is that the guy we are trying to kill is invincible. Every time he is shot blood shoots out and then he regenerates. I have Tina with me, people are dying. I take some back halls and sneak past with Tina. We get out and go to the hideout. We get in and Tina again takes the bed and sleeps. I am exhausted and still sick, more of a stomach cramp, pain throughout my body type sick, not a virus sick. I take look out again. Then two of the guys show up, we have to go. The creature / person has gotten out and we can't allow him to be let lose on the streets. I get two tranquilizer pills, they are huge. The only problem is that I have to figure out how I'm going to get the pills down his throat.

~dream skip~ I am on the ground, the guy/creature is towering over me. I know that I am going to die. I look at the pills and leap up and shove my hand into his mouth and down his throat. He grabs me and holds me above ground, his teeth clamped on my hand. What is left of our team is standing there unsure what to do. They could shoot the creature to try to save me but that could cause the tranquilizers to be bled out of his system.

~dream skip~ I am at a concert. Somehow I end up at the front, my hands touching the stage. One of the singers, or the main singer, notices me. He comes up and holds out a hand, I take it and before I know it I'm on stage. He whispers that I get to go backstage for free. I ask if I can bring a friend, Mary had given me a ride to the concert. One of the other singers/band player with a guitar walks over and helps Mary up. She goes backstage quick, she doesn't like being in full public on stage. I'm on stage with the guy, I don't know his alterier motives. Right in front of all the fans he kisses me, I kiss right back not wanting to let go. Then goes back to the song. I slip back stage to find Mary, she's not there. The band goes off stage and is being called back for an enchoure. He smiles at me and tells me he will be right back. I am conflicted inside should I stay? should I look for mary?

~dream skip~ I come out with the sword of power, attaching the desert storm power and the magic special thing we had been looking for. I am with the original team only we are down to five members still alive. Somehow I had survived the last battle. None believe me. I sweep out the sword sending out the desert storm power, all evil coming after us, gone. A vast emptiness.

~dream skip~ We are back in the hideout. Someone comes in, there is a forboding appearance. One of the guys in our team has a special weapon that connects into one large circle with slashing claws but can also be taken apart into 4 separate pieces, claws that can be attached to the hand or foot. He gets up and hands us each one claw. I refuse at first and he looks at me, "there is nothing else. It was a fun ride." I do not allow myself to tear up but I strap the claw to my right hand.

~dream skip~ I am all that is left. I am standing by a comander of a primative army, he has been training them to fight with swords. There is a bamboo gate that is at this guard post that needs to be opened. These Ewoks rush down this hill, charging. They have small spears, they refused to use the swords or anything else. They are being shot down, they will lose. I look at this scene and charge down myself.. I rush with my sword and kill from a distance. Then I leap on the shoulders of one standing by the gate, kicking the lock of the gate, breaking it. I slash open the throat of a guard to my right and leap over the wall. The gate swings out a small bit, mission accomplished. They send out Adam Sandler. I run, swim a river and run and swim a stream. Exhausted I crawl out from the other side, laying on my stomach. Adam Sandler gets there and becomes Will Ferrell and then becomes Owen Wilson. I am crawling like a dog/horse and he is on my back. I know he is not going to kill me and he knows that I know.

~dream skip~ The movie is only half way through and we haven't even gotten to the real battle yet. ~wake up~

[This is what happens when I work hard all day, play hard, work out, go to bed really late and wake up really late. ~sigh~ and ~shakes head~]

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Outer Space, Pokemon and Church

We are in outer space. Ryan is outside of the car taking pictures. I am sitting in the passenger seat. I see the beautiful scenery of planets and lights and such and I get out. I go over and look at Ryan's pictures, leaning close to give him ideas. I tell him how I like the lighting of one, the contrast of another or which ones to keep, redo or delete. His head is leaning over mine, then I turn around and I pick up a strawberry [I have no idea where I got it] Ryan is taking pictures again. I take a slow, delicious bite. Ryan looks over at me with a completely different look on his face, a different desire. I am surprised...The Taylor Swift song starts playing..."...see that I'm the one who understands you...see ee ee, you belong with me ee ee, you belong with me."

~dream skip~ I hear about the magic of the wardrobe and travel through to Narnia. Once there I hear shouts of an army. I'm with a small group of people. We have to get to Tomnas's house. We rush and over the hill an army of Orcs from lord of the rings pour out. We get in the house and I hide between a chair and the wall, not a very good hiding spot. They are coming.

~dream skip~ I am at a pokemon convention. There is all things pokemon, people dressed up, shows etc. I am wondering if they are playing the first movie anywhere when a guy comes up to me [he is some famous actor but I have no idea who] and tells me that he can prove Santa clause is real. I follow him and out this door is Santa.

~dream skip~ I am laying on top of the heads of the raindeer as they are flying. I just hope I don't fall off.

~dream skip~ I am at church with Joleen. The back of the pew we are sitting at is reclined. We are at some funeral, like of the Pope or something. My bishop is there he had rushed to get ready and comes in 10 min late but we haven't started yet. I am laying reclined in the seat, almost like it was a bed. Ryan puts his hand around me massage my side. Then I sit up abruptly and ask Joleen who the speaker is. Joleen likes the speaker. The seat is no longer reclined, I cuddle...~wake up~

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Renting and Stranded

I am looking to rent an apartment. Lila is with me. We look at different places. $530/month or $600/month with a park side view. It is a nice place. We see a 2 bedroom place that is perfect but instead of a bed in the other bedroom there is a bunch of baby stuff. We look at another room and it has two beds. Look out the window and all you see is bricks. I go to the park side view and there is a beautiful view with a park that is in the center of the complex. The apartment complex is done in a circular format so that the park is center and then there are apartments in the center and on the other side which would be street view.

~dream skip~ I am stranded in the middle of the night in this gravel car pull out area, off of the freeway. Sis Jenney, Jacobson and Glen are there but can not give me a ride. I don't know how I got there and figure I will have to walk back. Marco shows up in a truck and offers a ride. It's like he knew I was going to be stranded there. [I wonder if in the dream he planned it or something...] He drives me to my house and then we keep going. I look out the window and watch the house go by. I open the door and get out. He slams on brakes surprised. ~wake up~

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Black at the Wedding

swimming sites? I dive into the water and the boys follow only my brothers.

~dream skip~ I put on cinnamon roll chapstick only for me kiss first random guy not wearing a wedding ring.

~dream skip~ A girl is going to marry a prince for his money and what not. Witch finds out and tries to expose her. [she is the same witch from "to kill a witch" under the category "store"] The girl is singing a love song with the prince as they are preparing for the wedding. He is singing how he "loves...her...soooo..." and she is singing other things about being with him and lying through her teeth on the love part. Then she is alone looking in a mirror, music is still playing in the background. She is in her wedding dress. The witch is talking to her then leaves mirror to other room and talks to the prince and passes everything on with out lying, cause she can't. She is trying to break up the prince and the girl but mostly to break the princes heart and cause hurt and problems. She gets the girl to say things she likes about the prince and she says that he will be a good king someday. Witch laughs. "That's what I've been waiting to hear." The witch is going to tell the prince that the only reason that the girl is marrying him is that she believes he will be the next king. The girl yells "wait!" Then the girl staring in the mirror becomes me. The veil is back over hair, not a flattering Gorgeous look anymore, just plain. "Because I love...Him...Sooooo" I sing. The witch cries out in anger.

~dream skip~ Paint everything black. Black accent for wedding. Got permission to paint the wheels of toy truck. My head is too heavy from all the wigs and stuff decorating. I am not allowed to take anything off and I am very frustrated.

~dream skip~ Dad is putting down Marco and says something about drinking, "he doesn't drink" I defend. Dad opens mouth I talk over him "doesn't drink or smoke." I pause, then hastily add "or do drugs. He has his own things but that's personal. You shouldn't judge people."

~dream skip~ I start painting the edges of shelves black. Mom yells out "Is everyone ready?" I say yes and she is standing at the door staring at me as I keep on painting. She stares longer. I'm still painting up and down when she sighs and opens the door. I drop the brush and get in the car. It's a limo inside and everyone's there. The kids are in the back and the older in the front but then grandma appears in the back next to me. "Everyone buckled..." I am buckling ~wake up~

Monday, July 27, 2009


I don't remember much but apperantly I went to walgrenes with my family and it was like a value center type of place only super nice and an icecream parlor in the back and such. We went in just for icecream and when we left there was a booth to pay for parking. My mom got upset and said that we only came for icecream and they wouldn't let us leave. It was five dollars. Mom went inside and complained to the manager who was immovable even when my mom said she would never come back. The managers wife was on her husbands side until she realized that it was only five dollars. He was immovable and I don't know what my mom did but I got on a bicycle and rode home. [The only thing was that it was a completely different neighborhood from where I live and even the Walgreenes was in a different shoping center than I've ever seen before.] I rode my bike through side streets and it was night time.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Cursed and Running for my Life

I am in this car with a friend. He is buying a new car but it is cursed. I am sitting in the passenger seat when I see a tiny spider. I back up and cry out to him "there's a spider" Then another one appears and another. Then a whole mass of little spiders crawls out of the inside handle of the door. I am trapped. I open the door and leap out. Then I pull off my shirt and pants while standing on the sidewalk. I shake them a bunch of times to knock off all of the spiders. I shake myself and my hair. The spiders are off of me but about 8 or 10 spiders cling to my clothes. I run in the house and grab my can of spider killer. I spray them, but they still do not leave my clothing. They are after me and I don't know why, [I think it was a curse that was ment for someone else and I was in the wrong place at the wrong time.]

~dream skip~ I am a prisoner with this woman and this man. We are trying to escape and this fat lady is trying to stop us. [She had a name in the dream but I can't remember) We run and climb and end up at the top of this area. Very far down is the ocean. It seems to be about 4 stories down. The woman is afraid. I hop over the rail and dive. There is a small wall holing in some of the water near the ship area and I have to dive past that. I am a few feet from the wall on the ocean side. As soon as I slip into the water I turn myself around and start kicking my legs and place my arms at my side thinking 'rocket ship. zoom back up like a rocket ship' My lungs were burning and I wanted to breath, even underwater I was about to take a breath when I burst above the surface. The woman and man come up next to me. We all made it. The fat lady cries out and leaps. "Oh ____" We start swimming. When she hits the water a tsumami of water washes over us and pushes us far to the other side of the docking bay. [I don't know what else to call it but a docking bay. It was a large, dome like room with lots of different little boats and one bigger boat, like a battleship or something. But there were no piers to dock on. It was all deep water with the docking areas surrounded by walls on all sides but one where the ships could enter and ancher.] Past small boats and around walls. We swim and climb over a small wall on the other side and run and then jump into the water and swim again. There is a large open area where the ocean water comes in [It looks like the open bay from starwars on planet Hoth] We swim to that when we come up to a small, kyack type boat that has a sail. We climb in and I offer to pay the person who owns the boat when I recognize his face. He smiles and turns the boat, he's going to help us. We get out to sea.

I am in an appartment room with Sabyr and a few others. We are hanging out. [Sabyr is back from Utah or visiting from Utah, I couldn't quite tell.] He had gained a lot of weight and looked almost like Bert.] We are lounging on couches, talking when Sabyr changes clothes right in front of us, I partly look away to give him privacy. We are still chatting and all of a sudden I start singing the "Little Einstines" song. My dad is there singing too. As he sings I turn my head and we are in my house. I sit on the couch. Mom and Dad are in easy chairs and we fall asleep with the TV on. We have a couple of maids cleaning the house, a man and a woman. They turn off the TV before leaving. When mom wakes up she gets super upset about the maid turning off the TV that she is talking about firing them. They leave and I am alone in the living room. I hear breathing. I look on the couch but no one is there. I kneel down at one side of the couch and the sound is closer. I follow the cushins to the other side listening. Then there is a small bundle under a sheet in the far corner. That wasn't there before. I debate whether I should move the sheet, I am hoping it is Joshua, but he's not that small. ~wake up~

[Wow I havn't dreamed about that person in a long time. And especially not just having a casual conversation with others around almost like old times. I have no idea where the spider curse came from but I do know there was more to the dream.

When I recorded it I was still half asleep and all I wrote was "Attacked by Spider" and it was in bairly legable writting, it took me a long time to decipher the words. Usually I write more down but the only other thing I wrote down was "escape fat lady"

The escaping part was much like the old dreams I used to have when I was a teenager and younger.

I would have liked to remember more about the spider thing because there was something about the curse, and a way to fight the curse. It would have added to a great story.]

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

No one truely wants me

I am talking with my boss [don't know what my job is but somehow in the dream I know he is my boss], we are in a public bathroom for some reason. I am in short shorts and a nice top. I am waiting to see if he wants me, I was tired of making the moves and didn't want to be easy or desperate, could a guy really be attracted to me so much he would do anything to make me fall in love with him? As he leaves I realize that he doesn't want me. I am a little sad, when I hear a noise. Carefully I peek under the stalls to see if there is a pair of shoes. There is a naked guy, he had been looking up my shorts, they were short but not tight. There is a nasty leer on his face. I leave.

~dream skip~ Boss is yelling mad. I hadn't told him about the creepy guy but he had found out anyways.

~dream skip~ I am in a car with someone who is driving. We are looking for a place to park and can't find anything. We see a parking garage that says "lot full" but there is a strange feeling. We decide to check it out.

~dream skip~ We are walking around the bottom floor and there are no open spaces. We go to the top, roof, and there are tons of open spaces. It had been blocked off and abandoned. There were people sitting in some of the cars. At closer look we noticed they were dead. These cars were abandoned during the time of the "plague"

~Dream skip~ I am in this house, hiding from some guards. They are coming up to the house and the husband and wife get me under the floor boards. The guards barge in and search the place, nothing. Then one says "we haven't checked under the floor" I crawl to the edge, there is an opening to outside. Half my body is out but I stupidly want to watch. The guards look around and see nothing and then one turns his head and sees me, looking straight into my eyes. He yells out and I take off. I am running like crazy. Jumping fences, going through bushes, trying to be as hard to follow as possible. I end up across a street and as I run and try to hide or jump fences dogs are barking. There is no where to go, but to run.

~dream skip~ I see a garbage can, the chariot with the guards is getting close. I hide behind the garbage can and this guy sees me do it. He is staring at my hiding place saying, "What are you doing back there." over and over, getting louder. The guards come up and see me. I get out and they use these iron metal type hand cuffs (like from olden days for under the castle prison type cuffs.) I secretly notice that my wrists are too small and I could slip out. I stand in the back of the chariot and they are taking me away. We travel through this forest type place and I take off running, slipping out of the cuffs. I climb up a tree after circling around a bit all over. I hear dogs. I hide as far back in the leaves as possible so that I couldn't see anything myself, if I could see them there was a chance that they would see me. The dogs are all around sniffing and the guards are yelling, cursing and searching. I look at the cuffs still in my hand thinking I should have left them for the guards to find, to confuse them more, but then they would figure out that I could slip out of the cuffs, I would need a way to open them first. ~wake up~

Monday, July 20, 2009

Run Counter Clockwise

A large group of people are trying to get away from this dragon. We are in a huge building that has a hall that travels all the way around the building. somehow I know that the dragon is traveling counter clockwise. I warn the people and shout, getting them to move in the same direction so that they would avoid the dragon. They listen though grudgingly. It is a hard task to save people when they don't understand. A small group goes clockwise instead and I chase them down, worried. I see the dragon in a room off the hall but it is sleeping. I sneak the people past but not myself before the dragon awakes.

The dragon is immense. She/he is blood red but with a ruby type sheen on the scales. There are parts where sparkling gold type color is outlining some of the scales. A beautiful and frightening sight. I run to tell everyone but they are all sleeping on the floor, in rooms and in the hall. No one wakes up, they are all sluggish and half asleep and half awake. It is as if they were drugged or under a spell.

I turn back and I see this lady who is the dragons friend. The lady doesn't like me. The dragon can change shapes. A small bird, I am amazed. Then something else. Then a rhino that I am on the back, trying to escape from someone or something and the dragon is helping me. I feel the dragon in my mind telling me to meld with him. I lean down and my body begins to melt into the rhino's so that only half of me is showing. We are small enough to get through this doorway, just barely. Someone is mad and want's me dead, I can feel them right behind us...~wake up~

Friday, July 17, 2009

McDonald's, torture and the meaning

I just came from McDonald's drive through, only I don't have a car and after I made my order I realized this. I took off because I knew they didn't serve people outside of cars at the drive-thru. As I left through the bushes there was a gang of guys that were picking up their orders from the window, they weren't in a car...

~dream skip~ I want to go back to McDonald's, I need a McChicken sandwich or my head will burst. I am in this mall type place and the McDonald's is on the top floor. I go up some stairs. Then I am too high, then I am too low, I'm running around seeing stores on either side but never at the McDonald's. Then I see it in front of me...

~dream skip~ I am on a large flat roof, or out in the middle of nowhere on flat land. The wind is blowing like crazy and there is this rope that falls, hanging in front of me. I look up and there is this large dirigible in the air. I feel a sense of dread.

~dream skip~ This girl is tied, chained and unclothed. She is to be tortured mercilessly and parts of her skin are to be cut out. She no longer has any tears left to cry and awaits the new pain and terror, it will never end. I see her and then I realize that she is me. ~wake up~

[scattered, random and almost forgotten. I wasn't even going to post this one but then remembered that as far as I know, nobody follows this blog, it's too random and out there and nonsensical. Which works for me because this is the real me that hides behind the mask of reality. It's important to fit in, otherwise the world will destroy you and you will be left alone. I know that feeling, I have been destroyed and I have been alone. It is better to be alone and fake it, to suffer the inner tortures of the mind and be considered crazy than to be alone completely. These are thoughts that went through my head after I woke up. I wonder if it's in connection to the end of the dream with the girl being resigned to her tortuous fate. Death would have been a blessing and a relief, but death isn't that kind.]

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Deception, Destruction and babies

There are 3 pretty girls who worry about their looks and have attitudes such as the popular girls in high school would. They work at some kind of job where they are on TV behind a desk live either every day or on a very regular basis. Last minute they call in this other girl, that also works the same job. She is told to come in immediately or lose her job. She comes in with sunscreen [That's what it was called in the dream but it could have been any type of white cream] all over her face. She is working hard to rub it in but the girls are telling her to get up their now. She doesn't know what to do. These girls knew she would be humiliated and that was why they called her in, to ruin her career, but they have seniority. I toss her a towel where she can quickly wipe off the cream. I get evil glares...

~dream skip~ This powerful guy of darkness is some type of freelance worker or vigilante who has to take out certain people. He is like a "Death" type of character only not "Death". He has a radar with glowing dots on it for the people he is supposed to kill. Only something strange is happening and the radar system has too many dots, so he follows one. He walks in this room and sees to attacking the other. He has to choose and assumes the attacker is the one. So he sends out a fireball and incinerated the man who burns. I see as his head becomes a skull. It was the wrong guy. The guy curses under his breath and goes out again to find the person he is supposed to take out. He ends up killing 2 others that were not on his list to go. They were quick but horrible deaths. I come up and talk to him. I start asking him questions that he thinks about...his thoughts are connected to the radar...and some of the dots disappear. I keep asking questions until only one dot is on the screen.

I am with Lila in this mansion type house. We are in a large room conversing. She asks me something and I say that I had finally seen "Wicked". She then mentions that she has the sequel on DVD if I wanted to watch it. She said that "Son of a Witch" the sequel book was not worth the time. She then leaves explicit instructions that if I wanted to watch it that I had to go straight upstairs, not look around or get curious, otherwise she would not let me see the movie. I go upstairs, out of the corner of my eye I see her sisters and other people in this room, with the door open.

~dream skip~ I hear about a baby car, like for a train or something like that. I ask if each parent is responsible for their own child and was told that all the parents would help with all of the children. There were about 30 parents.

I am married [don't know who I am married too or if I'm sepparated and runing as a single mom or what. I never see the husband in the dream.] and it seems like every time I turn around I have another kid. I end up with 3 boys in a relatively short time and come to find out that my sister is having a boy as well which would give her two boys. I comment that I doubt any of us will have any girls, it doesn't seem to be in our genes or whatever.

I stay the night at ____'s house. It is a medium sized room moderately decarated but kept nice. [I would know the room if I saw it again] We are just laying on the bed, I am on my back. we are either watching a movie, starring at the ceiling or sleeping. Nothing happens, we stay on our separate sides of the bed. Then after what ever long period of time ____ rolls over me [like Rick did with Lila], staring in my eyes for a sec on top of me before ending up on the other side of the bed. As he finished rolling over I wrap my arms around him and rest my leg on his. He looks at me and matter of fact asks "Can I ask you a gray question." I nod. "How far are you willing to go." I state, also matter of factly, "That is a good question" Thoughts run through my head about if anything goes sour if it would ruin other friendships and prevent me from hanging out in certain groups, about no intercourse before marriage, if I'm ready to go that far and babies, since earlier in the dream I seem to be very fertile. I open my mouth to answer...

~wake up~

[I can not use the name of one of the characters here because people who know me will know who I am talking about and I can't give away my fake name for the sake of the privacy I have kept up with on this blog. It's too bad I woke up just as my subconscious was coming up with the answer. The Lord tells me things in my dreams sometimes but He doesn't give away what I should or should not do or what I might make the choice of doing. He allows me to come up with my own choice, even if He already knows what I will do. It used to get very frustrating when I lived my life wanting to please everyone, except myself, and wanting to follow everything exactly with out knowing what I wanted to do or what decisions I wanted to make. I believe it is part of being Bi-Polar because now that I'm on the med's I am looking at life in a different way and trying to figure out what I want to do and where I want my life to go. It's complicated but I feel more freedom and happiness than I have ever felt in my entire life.]

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Looks like the Church is True

I am Rainbow Brite but plain, without any color as if the color had been sucked out of me. Color is leaving everything. There is a frightening being that is responsible for this. i make a rainbow across this chasm (like the grand canyon) and ride Starlight across as fast as I can to leap to the other side. I had expected the rainbow to lose color at any time and wanted to be across. When I look back I see the rainbow still in full color. As I stand there and stare, the color is gradually removed, turning it a variety of shade of gray, starting from the other side of the Chasm...and then it crumbles into nothingness. The gray is coming close to me and I have to get away. I want to fight but all I can think to do is run.

~dream skip~ I am in the SUV but when I hit the brakes the car only slows down. I can't get it to stop. I am at a red light and do not wish to go into the intersection. I keep my foot on the brake to go at a really slow pace and then turn the wheel so that I am going in circles instead of crossing over the crosswalk into the intersection. There is another car that comes up behind me and sees what I am doing. The creep closer so that I would possibly hit them.

~dream skip~ Directing kids through this house, only it's like a maze. I don't know where I am going so they have to navigate. I get more lost. This little girl finally takes charge, the boy was just taking us all in circles. Then we are at the front door. She goes outside to wait for her mom. I wait by the door watching her out the window. The boy says that their previous caretaker just sent the girl outside and then went back to the main room. I would never do that, I stay there.

~dream skip~ I am at church sitting on the small couch out of the meeting hall, near the glass doors. Marco is sitting there. Some guy is sitting next to him trying to force him to take a calling by leaving a guilt trip. Marco begins arguing and they both argue, getting in each others faces. I keep putting my hand between them, I am ignored. I tap the guy on the shoulder, grab his arm, push his chest and still he ignores me. Finally the guy turns to me and I get down on him for trying to guilt someone into a calling. I use things like "Is that what Christ would do?" and "Is that the kind of service you want, something that is forced?" Then the guy takes me aside to whisper and ask me questions that are non of his business [but for some reason I don't think about that in the dream. Too naive and honest.] "Does Marco pray?" I whisper "Yes" "Does he read his scriptures?" I whisper "I don't know but I believe he does and sometimes he reads with me."

Then I go back to Marco who is half laughing silently with his eyes and a smile on his face. When I get up to him he says "We will be late for class" I bend down to pick up all of my stuff and when I stand up, Marco is gone. I walk up and down the halls looking in each of the classes, searching but not finding him. (gospel doctrine, essentials and I don't know what the other classes in the dream were ) None of the class doors are closed and all of them, it's as if the back wall is missing so I'm just there in the back searching heads. I don't see him anywhere so I go back to the couch.

The sacrament is being passed. There are like 30 people passing the bread to all of the classrooms and everyone in the hall and such. I am surprised that I take a piece of bread out of habit. I realize what I have done, but can't take it back. There is a little boy watching me, like 5yrs old. So Instead I pretend to eat it and leave it in my hand. Then I try to figure out how I can pretend to take the water. After thinking for a bit, I realize it is not a good idea to pretend, to make things look good on the outside. So I decide to go into the bathroom to wait.

I'm in the waiting room I begin writing. I write a few beautifully worded pages for my story. It is a masterpiece in the making.

~dream skip~ I am playing a book on CD [I think I am still in the bathroom waiting room that is more like a living room]. After a while the book hits a passage that sounds familiar. I look down and it is word for word what I have written. I am mortified. Did I copyright with out even knowing it? How is that possible for an entire chapter? It sounded so good and now I wouldn't be able to use it.

Then the CD starts talking to me. It says my name and starts talking about Christ. I am awe struck and believe. I look at the CD and realize that the copyright and the message are on track 6 and 7. I try to write down what the CD is saying to me but all of my pens seem to be out of ink. I keep trying and they are not working. I pull out a red pen but it bleeds blood over the page, ruining the words it is writing. I use a highlighter but it smears to the point of eliminating the letters completely. I use a pencil and it is working but it breaks and I hold the lead in my hand still trying to write.

~dream skip~ I am in the main hall of the church. Everyone is still in classes and doesn't know or notice, a war breaks out. I need to check my phone to find out where Marco is and show him my discovery / writing. I am in the back and walk to the hall, jumping over a trench, bomb blown hole. On the other side this man looks at me sneering...

[Well I prayed that the Lord would be with me in my dreams to help me figure things out. I prayed to know the truth and that it would be made manifest in my dream, if it is the Lord's will. That would mean that Christ is the Savior and that the Christian religion is true. Which would mean the Mormon religion wouldn't it? I guess I better read the Book of Mormon again. What an interesting, confusing, enlightening and frightening dream. To be concluded in HD journal.]

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

singles, marriage and a secret

There is a Singles party that I am trying to avoid. William gives me a ride home and then I get a text that the party is at Neal's house. I go to my room to take out my trash when Derek comes in.

I had heard him asking my mom if he could talk to me because he knows that I've been down lately. I have the trash bag in my hand filling it with the trash. There is still trash on the floor and I want to just clean it up, even though Derek is standing there looking at me.

"Hey" He says quietly.
"Hey" I reply in the same quiet voice.

Derek then smiles a small smile and I return the same smile...

~dream skip~ My memory is going fast. My mom asks me what I was doing and I look down acting guilty, like I was doing something I shouldn't. I then look up at her, not quite meeting her eyes, "I was talking about medical..." She looks like she doesn't believe me but I really couldn't even remember what I had been doing seconds before.

~dream skip~ I am having a heart to heart with Derek.

~Dream skip~ I am on a boat, this pomeranian dog hates me. There is this guy there. Something happens and I am skilled in helping out with the danger or natural disater or whatever bad thing happened.

Then I married this guy and afterwords I find out that he is Batman. There is another married couple living in the same house. The guy from the couple is sharing a room with me, we have seperate beds on opposite sides of a medium small size room. He is drop dead gorgeous. I am sitting on my bed as he climbs in to sleep, I smile, "You're lucky. I had just changed those sheets so it is clean." He smiles as he leans against the pillows in a half sitting position, watching me...

The girl from the couple has her own room and my husband has the master bedroom all to himself.

~dream skip~ I leave the room and the pommeranian dog rushes up. Now the dog loves me and we wrestle and play. I pick up the dog and ruffle the fur...

~wake up~

[wow another random scattered dream.]

Monday, July 6, 2009

Reason for my scattered dreams

This is a safe place to think things through without all my crazy friends freaking out and sending mass messages or comments or such about how worried they are about my soul and well being and happiness etc.

My dreams have been so scattered lately, with out a real direction or purpose. I'm used to having some type of a storyline.

Maybe it's because I feel like a liar and a hypocrite. I'm being a different person around different people. I don't want people to find what I think and how I really feel. It's hard when worried about what others are feeling or thinking. Sometimes I wonder what to do. To come completely truthful to my church friends? To stop seeing my non-church friends? To go where I really want to? There are so many questions and none of them help me to move forward. I guess running away to Mexico still sounds like a great fix all. But who said I was going to take the easy way out, no matter how tempting.

I guess the only reason I don't feel like a complete liar is because I am very careful about how I word things. It's all about the semantics, but one day I will have to be honest. I don't look forward to that day and so I will live for today and worry about that later, if ever.

I have to figure this out myself. Where do I want to go, how far do I want to go, what is my dream/future, where does my heart/spirit lie, will I fulfill my desire?

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Break-ups are in the air

Everyone in the dream is in some kind of a stagnant relationship. One side or the other is preparing to break up.

Neal is moving and I promised to help him. On the day I go and get the U-Haul truck. I am running really late it's already 10:30am and I have to get to class. I decide I want to use clear plastic adhesive cut out in letters to spell Christmas. While doing this I have help from my bro (don't know which one). I call Neal and find out that he is not leaving, I ask...

~dream skip~ This guy wants to marry this girl, we all know her answer and are sad for him because he is going to propose in public.

This girl is pulled aside by an adult and talked to in private where she shares a secret...her "friends" eavesdrop and she comes out and sees them. She asks them not to tell anyone. Two agree and are good friends. The problem is this blond girl with braces who laughs and then goes out to tell everyone. Then I become the girl and my insides hurt and I curl up in a squatting position ready to cry...

~dream skip~ The one I love is not in love with me. I know this, but I don't want to leave. He is happy the way things are. I don't care that he doesn't love me or that we wont be together forever. Today is all that matters.

~wake up~

[Not much side comentary on this other than what the ____? So much skipping around and love drama. I knew I shouldn't have enjoyed watching those romantic comedies yesterday. This is what]

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Friend of a raptor?

I am surrounded by vampires but none of them are looking to bite me. The leader controls them and turns to me to say something....

~dream skip~ I am watching a horror flick but it's like I'm actually there, kinda like 3D only better. Two guys are in the water and something is in there with them. I scream for them to get out, but, of course, they can't hear me. One is a man about in his early 40's and the other is a youth about age 18.

"Something touched my leg" The man states, looking around in the water, carefully.
The youth shakes his head, "Is this another training stunt? You trying to scare me and see how well I stay under control?"

The man smiles and begins to respond when a different look crosses his face. He sensed something that couldn't be seen and shouts, "Get out of the water, Now!"

They both swim to the edge and get out just as a dinosaur leaps out of the water. All i see is vague images, claws, teeth, a tail and staring reptilian eyes. They run and hide behind a rock. Now in full view the creature stands at the edge of the water, a raptor. It sniffs the air, cocks it's head and smiles. "I know where you are and I will have you." It leaps on top of the rock, they scramble quietly to the other side as the creature jumps down to where they were seconds before.

"Ah, so it's a chase is it. I love the hunt." Then the creature uses it's senses to follow the two guys. They barely evade each time. The raptor gets closer with each attempt as the humans begin to tire. Then, as they are hiding behind the same rock, the raptor jumps on top of the rock but then jumps backwards to the spot it came from. The two guys had crawled to that side in anticipation of the raptors movements, they had misjudged. The raptor watches them, cocking it's head from side to side.

~Dream skip~ Somehow the two guys had escaped that scene and were again hiding from the raptor. I am now in the scene talking to the raptor. "If you leave some food out as a trap, you would be sure to catch them. It has been days and their bodies need sustenance."

The raptor nods it's head and we collect a few things. A slice of cooked steak, oh it smelled soooo good, but I had a mission. Also a banana and an orange. These were laid out with a string attached and then we left.

As we lay out the traps the raptor cries out, "I forgot the small cages." The raptor is talking about small birdcage type cages that the people would be cramped, stuffed inside.

"What about those two cages over there." I point at two larger, cube cages.

"Those cages are for Jedi only."

"What's to say that these two are not Jedi? They evaded us for so long...and if we are wrong? They will be put in different cages but they will still be captured. We claim ignorance and will not be punished. They do act like Jedi, other than not having lightsaber weapons."

~Dream Skip~ The guys are each in one of the cube cages. The raptor takes the first cage and I am pushing the second one. We leave the area following a small hidden path that leads to a metal mesh gate. Opening the gate we head down a more man made path towards some buildings.

The raptor passes a group of kids that are hitting the cage with lightsabers. Then they are gone. The raptor is faster than I am. I am pushing the cage and come across the same kids. A young boy cries out, "They don't look like Jedi!" I smile, but say nothing.

The 18 year old is the one in my cage and shouts, "Not yet! I'm a Padawan!" I smile to myself, if that was true then the other would definitely be a Jedi. What luck.

The kids are hitting the cage with plastic lightsabers.

I don't know where I am going, apparently I am only pretending to be a member of this organization, for what reason I do not know. I have people direct me along the way until I end up going through the back of a Safeway and through some large bay doors out in the back. Then I am inside. "I'm actually inside." I exclaim under my breath. I had never thought I would get this far. It was frightening and exhilarating at the same time.

Following orders and directions I end up in the room where the "Jedi" was being held. I push the cage next to the other one. They are talking to me as I am standing there and I'm trying to ignore. I can't afford to get caught now and if I show empathy I would be found out. The raptor comes in...

~Wake up~

[Wish I could remember more....I remember there was a fight of some kind and a fire. I'd like to know what happens next and what happens to me.

Am I a fighter? Am I just there for information? Am I a spy with secret abilities? Am I magical? Am I human? Am I a member of a greater organization that is not evil? Am I there to free a friend who was captured?

There are so many possibilities, all I know is that I was successful in infiltrating the facility, but I don't know if my mission, what ever that may be, was successful.]

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

To kill a witch

I am zooming in on a game shop store. I see clothing as well as gaming stuff. I am looking for Matt but do not see him. I then zoom in on the back room, opening the door. It is a cluster of video arcades, roll playing figurines, games and end-tables. Then I am just a ghost figure observing as two people enter the room.

Little Goku (from Dragonball) is a prisoner so to speak. He walks in and stands near the entrance way. This man, about 6'4" is standing over him, towering. "You will have 30 seconds to survive. If you survive I will reward you with your life."

There is a small girl all in black floating in the upper left hand corner of this large back room. She has a webbed shawl covering her head and tying back her hair.

Goku takes one step near the end-table in the center of the room. A bar with a metal paddle on the end, shoots out nearly hitting him on the head. Goku backs up, nervous. He walks by the other side of the end-table and another metal arm shoots out, only this one has spikes on the end and all around. Goku bairly dodges that one. He then smiles and runs through the entire place, playing a couple of the arcades to get a feel for the place. All of this he does in 30 seconds, stoping just short of the end-table.

The man is surprised and pleased at the same time. Then it is no longer Goku that is standing there but it is me. I look up at the man and ask him, "What will I get if I kill the witch?"

The man looks at me and then looks at the witch floating in the corner. He then looks back at me with an evil look in his eyes. "you can have anything in the store that you can carry."

I fight the witch and defeat her. The witch had possessed the body of a beautiful maiden and the way that I killed the witch ended up freeing her from the spell. The man looks scared.

I see the lego castle and part of it is broken. I want to fix it but only end up making it worse.

I then run out into the store to find Matt. I shout out, "Matt, Matt, guess what! I defeated a witch and now get whatever I want...." I look around but Matt is nowhere to be seen. Then I see him and run up to him, "Matt!" He turns around and it's his friend Jim.

~Dream Skip~ I am living in Sacramento and receive a facebook message from Marco. He says, "I have the possibility of transfering out there. I can't believe you decided to live in Sacramento but I will come too. I want to spend more time with you, even if it's only for now.

~wake up~

[wow, living in sacramento. Isn't that more of a nighmare than a dream?]

Sunday, June 28, 2009

am I human?

I am at this convention type place only there are a lot of random people around. There is one guy who looks like he is walking on stilts, come to find out he is part Giant. From this I get the impression that this is no normal grouping of people. Everyone has some type of magical blood in them. I wonder how I was able to sneak in, seeing how I am fully human, but no one seems to notice. I get a call from Joleen and I tell her where I am. I am with Lila and she is unable to reach the dress she wants. She doesn't want to ask for help, it is a frilly barbie type dress. There is a cabinet in the corner with a typewritter in it. I head towards the typewriter when I remember about Joleen's phone call. I race out, now I am alone. I get to the parking garage.

~dream skip~ I pass Joleen who is with a small group, there are about 3 or 4 people there. I drive past and go to park.

~dream skip~ I am in line with the group. Even though I'm getting back in, I have to be with Joleen and all so that they would be able to get inside.

~dream skip~ I am now with Marco alone at a house. We are sitting on a couch talking.

~wake up~

[This is not the true end of the be continued in one of my stories]

Friday, June 19, 2009

The Facility

I am in this school type facility. It is not a choice but a forced thing. It is almost like a prison because all of us are to stay in the facility and the outside doors are locked. There is this little girl, sweetest little thing, probably about 7years old or so, and she is talking about her dad. She loves her dad very much but he is in jail for being a murderer.

~Dream Skip~ It's like a camera shot that zooms in on a prison and down the hall, through the locker rooms, stopping at this older man in a chair, (probably about 60yrs old maybe a bit younger but no less than 50) He is talking about how he was a good person but then someone kept making this sound, Ehhhhhhhhhy (it sounds like a guttural A), he snapped. Now anytime he hears that sound he wants to go out and kill and he can not stop himself.

~Dream skip~ Over the loud speaker comes the sound, Ehhhhhhhhhy, I look around and the little girl is gone. Then through the window to the outside I see her walking away with a maniacal look on her face.

~Dream skip~ I am with this guy, he is a bit younger maybe about my brothers age, and he is needing to sand board across this area to get to a building. I am in charge only there are no remotes or keyboards or anything like you would find in a video game. I am not really there though, more like a presence. I follow him and direct him around rocks, so that he stays on the sand. It is a continuous ride and on accident I end up taking the more complicated road when we reached a fork. It took us up over this mountainous terrain where there was very little sand. He had great skill or I had great navigation, either way he even boarded on a small thin piece of sand with his back to the mountain rocks with only enough sand for half of his board. The other half of the board was hanging in mid air over a huge drop.

We made it to the end and it was all sand. He stopped at the end which was a huge stretch of sand that dropped off to the sand below. The building was down there. We looked at each other and I smiled, "jump". He leapt with the board attached to his feet and landed right in front of the building. The building was the same facility I had been locked up in.

~Dream skip~ I was at my own place, lots of bad memories behind me. There was a package in the mail, I thought it would be the stuff I had left behind at "The Facility", but it turns out to be stuff that I had junked or mailed back to them. I threw it across the room, frustrated, angry and hurt.

~Dream Skip~ I am with a group of people at a class. It is a religious class but I am exhausted and sleep through most of it. I keep trying to open my eyes but they close again.

~wake up~

Friday, June 12, 2009

Protect the invention and save the kids.

I am caught in some kind of time warp. I was in this group of people that was creating some kind of revolutionary invention. Other neighboring groups want to steal not only the idea but how we did it and take the whole thing. We have it sectioned off into pieces and that's when I got caught in the time warp. (i don't remember what happened in the warp but when I got back I knew that the bully would come with his side kick to come and bully us out of the invention and then destroy it.) I return from the time warp and run up the stairs to the roof of a building. It is raining outside. Everyone is huddled together trying to decided who will take what sections. I run in and they cry out "there you are. We've been so worried. How could you abandon the project?" I look at them, glancing over my shoulder. "That's not important, what's important is protecting our invention." I draw boxes on a piece of paper with columns. Each row symbolizes one of the group and each column symbolizes a time of day. We create X's on who is going to take what watch. I was on the first watch. Everyone left and the bully came to steal. The piece of project I had was a small wrapped up tube. I slipped it into my backpack and the bully tried to threaten me. I stood my ground...

[dream skip] I am with Nick and Krista and this guy. There are these two men trying to take the kids. (there is a reason but I have no idea what it is, just that I am their only chance, but they don't understand the danger). We all end up running, I tell the guy to keep the kids with him and I'll run ahead to draw the men off because for some reason it's me they want even though they are out to kidnap the kids. (I know, I know, that doesn't make sense but in the dream it did) When I look over my shoulder I am far ahead but the guy is a few blocks back and the kids are way behind him. "You Idiot!!! You left the kids!" He stops and looks back. I run back and the kids are running to me. The two bad men got on this bus/train (one of those light rails or buses on tracks that runs on electricity) The bus/train stops and the men coax the kids who listen and get on. They smile and wave at me, thinking this is all a game. I cry out and yell at the guy "now they've got the kids." The guy didn't seem too broken up about it, but he got upset when I chased down the bus/train and leaped on. The two men laughed but I told the driver to radio for the police, as she picked up the radio one of the men pulled out a gun. "You put that radio down or I'll shoot." The driver slowly put down her radio. I stared at the men. Krista ran to me and hugged me. The kids still didn't understand the danger but I knew that I would protect them no matter what happened to me, and I knew that the bad men knew it too. ~wake up~

Saturday, June 6, 2009


I can't believe it, no dreams last night. That has to be the first night in a long, long time. I don't always remember them or take the time to record them, but I always wake up knowing they are there.

I had trouble sleeping last night, hmmmmmm wonder why...but even so I woke up without the slightest twinge of a dream. Nothing. I don't know if to be sad or relieved or shocked or what. "It's a gift and a curse" as Monk would always say.

Friday, June 5, 2009

On Trains and Prairies

I am a man or a male of about 12 to 14 years of age. I am with my friends and we are out playing when we hear a sound. They all start screaming and some of them freeze up. Soon all of my friends are frozen, curled into balls and they all look like rocks. (I don't know if it's magic or a rock colored blanket or if that's just what it looks like when people on the prairie, or wherever we were, curl up into a ball on the ground) They are scared. The monster turns out to be a T-Rex. It dips it's massive head to the ground, sniffing. I run up and leap on it's neck, climbing up towards it's head. It raises up to full height, I have to grab at the tiny hairs and hope I don't fall. I hang on and then when he stops I climb to the top of his head and stab his eye, and stab his other eye. He roars back and I go flying, landing on my side. He is now blinded, I now have the advantage to take him down.

[dream skip] I am on a moving train. There is a drama final that is being turned in. It is to read a piece of work, we had created, on stage. I start reading (wish I could remember, it was beautiful and amazing) It had to do with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, but was written in such a way that it could include the Great Spirit, The Divine, Krishna, and any other such being. Everyone in class was leaving and talking though, while I was trying to read. One student stayed. The teacher never noticed. I continued as if nothing was happening. Then when I got to the end I realized that it felt incomplete and then I had a book in my hand which I read some from for inspiration to finish the piece. The teacher complimented me but asked if I read that last part from a book, which would be copyrighting, or copy reading, something as my own that wasn't. I said that I did read small snippets but mostly just used it for inspiration. She smiled and asked me to do my piece again. I did, only this time it was in a sing songy voice that was beautiful.

[dream skip] The kids all surround me, we are out in the land that is open and free. They tell me how I saved our village and that I am their protector. I am the Tyrannosaurus slayer.

[dream skip] I am wondering on the train. There is a door that opens out to a seat dangling from the train. It is a wire mesh type, make shift, chair that is just a back and a seat. When you sit in it your feet dangle over the moving tracks. It may not be an actual seat but I sit out there to get away from people and to meditate/ think on my own. I look out on the seat but then have to get to lunch. After drama, my teacher gave me a lunch ticket, so that I would be able to eat. I can not afford lunch on my own. There are two lunch halls, one that is less crowded and one where all my friends are. I peak in the less crowded one and then peak in the other room. Then I head back to the less crowded room, I was so hungry.

~wake up~

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

church; is it right, right now?

[Dream Skip] I went to church. There are a lot of people there. Also there are microphones that are hooked up to the edge of some of the pews. They can be turned on to make a comment durring sacrament meeting. Drew is sitting there in the back. He calls me over so I sit next to him and lean on him. He has his arm around me and then tells me to get more comfortable. He moves my legs onto the pew and sets a pillow down where he was sitting so that I am laying down and then he moves to another spot. I get up and walk out the doors to sit in the foyer in the chair that is directly across from the pulpit so I could still see the speaker. I have my big gulp of mountain dew that I am drinking. Cris notices and gets up [to walk back and talk to me or see how I'm doing or something like that I guess.]

[dram skip] Cris is walking to one of the center pews next to this beautiful and slightly big girl but she is well proportioned. She puts her arm around his waist as he goes to sit down. He rubs her shoulder and she leans in and they kiss, a small peck but affectionate. He leans back with his arm around her, she leans into him and they are happy. I think to myself that they will probably be married in a couple weeks, they just seem right for eachother.

[dream skip] I go to the front to talk to someone. I need a tissue and grab one but the top one had been set up to look pretty. I tried to fix it but it wouldn't work. Shara had arranged it so she got back up from her seat to fix it all nice again. I am told to move that I am getting in the way and messing things up. Shara spoke up saying that she couldn't do it either. I havn't used the tissue so I trade, the first one that I had grabbed had been all stiff anyways. She took it and fixed it all nice, I wanted to help but it would only make it take longer.

I went to use the restroom. The guys was first then up the couple stairs and there was the ladies. Only there was a door kiddy corner that was open, blocking the other door from view. A couple ladies went in the other door. That door leads to a community bathroom. I close the other door and go into the ladies room. I go to the stall and it was all grody and gross. Instead of going to a different one I cleaned it up and used it anyways. The other bathroom is connected to the ladies by an archway. One of the other ladies saw it and came this way. [The community bathroom is the same as one I've had in many other dreams.]

Rene and Daniel are at my house. They are outside playing. I have to get the presant I promised Rene. I had given Daniel a car and told Rene I would get her something dressy. I couldn't find anything so I gave her a choice. Doll clothes that I took off one of my dolls [which I don't own in real life] or a stuffed pink zebra [also which I don't own in real life] a broken hula hoop, [nope, don't have it] or a tennis ball [yup, have that one.] She was choosing.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Secret service? Vigilante? Spy? Who knows.

There is a war going on. I am fighting for my life. I take out everyone on my own. I am hiding behind some boxes and I can take out the other guys, but if I hit one of the army guys then I'm caught and will be killed. After I use a silencer and quietly remove the other guys. The army people are constantly marching by where I am hiding, nearly giving me a heart attack each time. Then when they are on the furthest part of their march, I pull out my automatic and start taking them out. I have most of them dead before the first could even pull out their weapons. I know a secret...

[dream skip] I am leaving the house for some secret thing. I am staying with a group of people; Joleen, Jenny, Daniel, Rene and a few I do not know. It is a large two story house, though there is one main room on the bottom floor where we all have blankets and sleep. [I do not remember what I am doing, but I don't want to be found out, the rest of that part is fuzzy] Then I'm coming home and can not find the key. I have to knock on the door. I knock soft and Daniel and Rene open the door. I slip in. Jenny doesn't comment on my coming in so early. I find my key in the purse I was carrying. I don't know why I couldn't find it before.

[dream skip] I am out with Joleen and another person. We are visiting a friend of Joleen's but as we come up to the house Joleen takes off and shouts "go ahead and go in, I'll be right back." We knock on the door, feeling awkward. A lady answers the door and we comment that we are friends of Joleen. The lady lets us in. There is a large half circle of comfy chairs. I sit in the second row on the curve between the left side and the middle. The person with me sits on my right. Then Joleen slips in and instead of sitting with us, she sits in the row behind, in a different comfy chair, even though the chair next to me and the one next to the other person are the same type of different chair. I look back at her confused and she smiles back.

[dream skip] I am looking for a job. I have a strong recommendation to this farm place with horses and farming stuff. It is crowded and it takes me awhile to find the person in charge. She looks at me sad. "Sorry. There are no positions available. There is no place open. I can't take you. I leave my resume with her and watch her get in a green VW bug. I walk the long walk up the hill and get to my car. As she is driving the bug behind the large building [sheltering some of the horses I think] I tell myself, "I really want that car. A car like that drives so well." I run around the side, from the top of the hill I'm on, to see if I can watch her park it. I look out and see something, I squint...~wake up~

[stupid alarm]

[Although for the record I have never and will not want to buy a bug. That is just not my style or type of car. But that's just me]

[That part with the chairs is some type of meeting. Interesting.]

Monday, May 4, 2009

kidnapped, hostage and true identity

This young girl is my friend, I am young too. We play together. Then she is kidnapped. I call police. I also follow them, I think it's by a tracking device or something. Or maybe I have the police follow but I placed the device. Anyways he takes her to an apartment, he puts on "batman the animated series" for her....then the police knock on the door and bust in. The man is charged with....and taken away. I am there and I am organizing her things on the bed, she doesn't want anything left behind. She is getting dressed. I am older, still organizing the stuff on the bed...

[Dream Changes] This group of guys is standing by their car, dressing up like partial batman vigilantes. They only have the shirt on with jackets over it, this car is behind their parked car. This group of guys, noticibly evil. Get out and pull out guns. They tell the guys to go to the wooden fence, it is on top of a hill, overlooking weeds, trees, bushes, dirt and some grass for a while, it's a wilderness park in the city. I grab my walky talky [I am one of the guys now and not just watching] and radio in for help, stating where we are. I am not noticed. I get up to the fence and drop my walky talky on the ground on the other side of the fence. One of the other guys does the same, he must have radio'd as well. He coveres his with dirt using his foot. I do the same. Then there is a comotion at the bottom of the hill and the other 3 guys take off. I stay by the fence, cheering them on. To of the bad guys go after them with their guns, but a crowd of people is coming up, they mingle with the people, running. One of the bad guys stays, but I am not worried.

[Dream switch] There is a woman wollowing in her sorrow. She is drinking. I am there and another girl. There is a long piece of mechanical pencil led in my arm. I am working it to poke out of my skin so I can pull it out, this is while my friend is talking. She is drunk talking about this guy she loved who hurt her and they had children and then she married a jerk and now is divorced. She is upset about the fact that she could have been somebody. I am pulling out a piece of lead but it breaks off so it's only a small piece. I work it out again and pull out a long piece, it hurts but it comes out. I sigh with relief. I tell her I don't remember and she is upset "you don't remember!" then she calms down, "that's alright, this is my burden to bear."

Then it skips to this guy. He is gray haired. He is the true father. I believe they are the parents of the two girls, me and the one who was kidnapped. I am upset to find him as my true father, I always thought my true father was the jerk who left my mother. This guy is kind, why did he leave. He didn't, there is more story and he is sad because he had no choice. The lady confront him and he is standing next to his bed, sad.

I see a large plate of cream filled eclairs. ~wake up~

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Coraline Retold or continued; your choice

[So my dream happened after the movie. I guess it's like a years later where the Bell Dam had continued to use her powers to ensnare children so that she could suck the life out of them and keep them for her own. When she was done with them there would be nothing left but a troubled soul. Then she would go after another this case it was someone I knew]

I get a call from Jenna, she wanted to know if I'd be available to watch her kids while she went out for the evening. I said that would be fine. When I got there she pulled me aside, "There's been something strange with Daniel lately. He keeps talking about his 'other' home and...well it's got me worried. If you could just keep an eye on him, that'd be great." I reassured her and she was gone.

Well Dan, Rene and I had a great time playing games and then as we were getting ready for bed I saw a doll. It looked just like Dan. It creeped me out. I didn't want to leave the doll out, staring at me or possibly attacking the children. [Yes my imagination was running wild and it scared me] So I tossed the doll in the game closet and closed the door. I took the kids upstairs, read stories and put them to bed. I heard a sound downstairs. I looked out and saw nothing. I was shaking so bad as I walked slowly down the stairs and towards the playroom. The doll was laying on the carpet, it looked like it was looking for something. I wanted to run, to scream, to call Debbie and have her come right away, but I couldn't. All I could think about were the kids. If I left, that doll could go after them, their life was worth more than my own. I slipped into the playroom, careful that the doll wouldn't see me. Then I ran, grabbed it up and threw it back into the open game closet. I slammed the door and grabbed some string. I tied the doorknob to the bathroom door knob that was just kiddy corner. Then I backed up and watched.

After a few minutes the handle started to jiggle, trying to open. This was not good. I couldn't leave a creepy life doll in their house. I pulled out some matches and set some lighter fluid on the sink, pourning some around the sides. Then I grabbed a bag. I threw open the door to the game closet and scooped up the now lifeless doll that fell to the floor. I tossed it out of the bag and into the sink. It landed face down. I poured lighter fluid on it and struck the match. The doll decided to move while I was watching and tried to turn to get a good look at my face. I dropped the match and then dropped to the floor. The fire rose up in a burst and then went down to a small flame. I kept tossing matched in till the doll was reduced to an ashy mess. Then I scooped it all up and tossed it and then tossed it all in the outside garbage.

When I came back in the house I saw Dan. He was walking slowly away from me. He had just come from down stairs and was headed for the hall. I called his name, He looked at me and started to run. I ran, grabbed him and put him to bed. He was very unhappy and told me that he hated me. I then went downstairs and toward the hall to see where he was going. There was nothing there. I decided to hang out under the stairs and wait. I could feel that something was wrong.

Maybe an hour passed by and Daniel was again downstairs and walking to the hall. This time I followed him, quietly. Jenna had asked me if I could maybe find out what was going on with her son. There was an opening in the wall, almost like a portal. He climbed in, I followed a bit behind. He never looked behind him, he was so excited about where he was going. When I emerged it was back into the same room I had left. The house looked exactly the same, except for the sounds of laughter in the kitchen. I snuck around the side and peeked in.

Jenna, Rene and Daniel were all around the kitchen table, eating sweets and having a good time. Then I saw the buttons on Rene's eyes. I was horrified. I didn't see Jenna's, somehow I knew it would be very bad if she caught me here. I listened to their conversation. Jenna was trying to convince Dan to stay with her and said that all he would have to do was to let her give him buttons for eyes. Dan said he'd have to think about it but he thought this home was so much better than his own. Then he was sleepy and she carried him up to bed. I waited until she was back down stairs and in the kitchen before I raced up the stairs to grab him and take him back. But when I got there, he was gone. He wasn't in the bed in this world. I realized I had better get out of here before I got caught. I slip out, listening to Jenna's false voice laughing about how she would soon have another child in her snare. I climbed through the portal and crawled back to reality. I then raced up the stairs and saw both Dan and Rene, the real one's, sleeping soundly.

The next day Dan talked about his "Other" home and the "Other" mother that was so much better. I told Jenna that I wanted to stay for a few days and she said that would be fine. I talked with Dan and he said "How could you possibly know." I told him that I had been there and that it wasn't a safe place. He then yelled at me and told me I didn't understand.

The next night, I waited by the wall. Around midnight the portal appeared. I went through and hid in the corner. I noticed that there was something wrong. I could sense another presence here. I heard a voice cry out in my mind for help. Then I saw up on the mantle, a doll that looked like Jenna, it was the real Jenna. She had been trapped here. I got a skateboard from the playroom, which was a horrible mess, toys everywhere.

Then with out warning Dan came through. I wanted to show him that I was here with out anyone else seeing but Jenna called out for him and he was gone. He didn't even see me. Quietly I placed the Jenna doll on the skateboard and sent it through the portal. She was safe on the other side. Then I stood there, listening in the doorway. The "other" Jenna was a little upset.

Dan wasn't as excited as he had been the night before. "Amy said that you weren't safe. She said that you were going to trap me and hurt me." Jenna glared at him, "Really and who is Amy to talk." Dan spoke between mouthfuls of strawberry short cake, "She's my babysitter. She's almost like an other, other mother." he laughed. Then Jenna smiled, "Oh, that Amy. Where there is an 'other' Amy here that is much nicer and lets you do whatever you want. She said she would be here soon, after you made the decision to stay. She isn't going to come visit if you are just going to leave her alone. That would make her sad."

Dan frowned, "I like Amy. I don't want another one. Plus, she said she's been here and that you are mean. I don't know if I want to stay. I can still visit..." Jenna frowned, "You are not going anywhere. You are staying here and you are going to have buttons for eyes. This will either be your paradise or your very own Hell. It is up to you. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran to Dan's side. "Don't worry Dan. I never left you. I will always be there for you, even if you can't see me."

Jenna stared down at me with buttons in her own eyes. She was frightening. I stared back at her, holding on to Dan. Then the world swirled and Dan was no longer there. I closed my eyes, I could still feel his arm in my hands. He was there, I just couldn't see him. "So, you've been here before? You snuck in here to steal my child away? A mother will do anything to protect her child." I glared back, "Which is why I'm here."

She shouted at me, "He is not even your child." I smiled back, "Yes he is. Not my blood child and not my own child but enough of mine to have my love. I love him and will protect him with the same firosity of any mother alive. You will never have him."

She laughed, "But, you have already lost him." Then she faded away. I felt a tug and then she was right. Dan was gone. I cried out but the fog swirled. I was alone. Then the room started to come back into focus. I could hear Dan's voice, "I don't care what you say, Amy didn't abandon me."

"Then where is she." The fake Jenna asked. "She is with me, even when I can't see her." As he said that, I really was there, no more smoke and mirrors. Then everything vanished. Dan was caught in a web and I was falling. 'none of this is real' I thought to myself, 'it's like a dream world.' I then decided to do what I would do in any dream world. I used my imagination.

Wings came from my back and I flew back up to Dan who was trapped. The fake Jenna was now the Bell Dam and she looked like a large spider ready to devour her prey. I was there at the web in seconds and hung on the bottom burning the fibers that held Dan captive. He fell into my arms. She cried out and came after us. I let up a huge mountain and flew around it to the portal. I sent Dan through, he cried for me to come but I told him that I had to stop her from coming after any other children.

The Bell Dam Spider reached me and sunk her teeth into my shoulder. I closed the portal and then grabbed her with my free hand. I sent fire into her, burning her from the inside out. She released me from her fangs and cried out in despair and pain. Cried until she was dead and then I burned her till she was ashes and burned the ashes until they were nothing. Then I fell, landing on the platform to the cave in the mountain. I crawled to the inside, I would die, I could feel it. Part of me wanted to just stay here, in the dragon's cave and die in my dream. That would be a comforting tomb.

Instead I opened a portal. I crawled into the house. I could hear Jenna reading stories to her children. They would be alright. I snuck out to my car and drove to the hospital that was only 10 min away. I almost didn't make it. I parked in the no parking zone, in front of emergency. People came out shouting mad at me, using my right hand, my entire left side was on fire, I opened the door and fell out. It was then that I lost conciousness and never woke up.

I never saw the doctors working so hard to pull the poison out and find an antidote. I never saw them call my family to inform them of my demise. All I saw, when I awoke was a world of spirits. It was like a world in fog, not in the clouds but in a swirl of fog. I was alone at first, then I would see people coming and going. I wondered a bit and found a group of children. We sat and told stories. It was a pleasant place, filled with peace. There was no pain or suffering.

Then Saber showed up, the real one, he had died the same day. He lived in Alaska and had always had the feeling to come to California. The day I left the real world for good he hopped on a plane and came to the bay area. He found my brother by accident and was allowed to stay the night. About 3am he woke up, the time I was poisoned, and he left the house in a hurry, the alarm sounding. He was in the car and driving when I climbed out of the portal. He was at an intersection at the time I fell out of the car at the hospital. And at the moment my spirit left my body a car ran a red light and there was an accident. The other driver was fine but "Saber" was killed. We had found eachother, after this life, but it was enough. We sat down and told the children stories. No more children would suffer, the Bell Dam was gone forever. ~wake up~