Black at the Wedding

swimming sites? I dive into the water and the boys follow only my brothers.

~dream skip~ I put on cinnamon roll chapstick only for me kiss first random guy not wearing a wedding ring.

~dream skip~ A girl is going to marry a prince for his money and what not. Witch finds out and tries to expose her. [she is the same witch from "to kill a witch" under the category "store"] The girl is singing a love song with the prince as they are preparing for the wedding. He is singing how he "loves...her...soooo..." and she is singing other things about being with him and lying through her teeth on the love part. Then she is alone looking in a mirror, music is still playing in the background. She is in her wedding dress. The witch is talking to her then leaves mirror to other room and talks to the prince and passes everything on with out lying, cause she can't. She is trying to break up the prince and the girl but mostly to break the princes heart and cause hurt and problems. She gets the girl to say things she likes about the prince and she says that he will be a good king someday. Witch laughs. "That's what I've been waiting to hear." The witch is going to tell the prince that the only reason that the girl is marrying him is that she believes he will be the next king. The girl yells "wait!" Then the girl staring in the mirror becomes me. The veil is back over hair, not a flattering Gorgeous look anymore, just plain. "Because I love...Him...Sooooo" I sing. The witch cries out in anger.

~dream skip~ Paint everything black. Black accent for wedding. Got permission to paint the wheels of toy truck. My head is too heavy from all the wigs and stuff decorating. I am not allowed to take anything off and I am very frustrated.

~dream skip~ Dad is putting down Marco and says something about drinking, "he doesn't drink" I defend. Dad opens mouth I talk over him "doesn't drink or smoke." I pause, then hastily add "or do drugs. He has his own things but that's personal. You shouldn't judge people."

~dream skip~ I start painting the edges of shelves black. Mom yells out "Is everyone ready?" I say yes and she is standing at the door staring at me as I keep on painting. She stares longer. I'm still painting up and down when she sighs and opens the door. I drop the brush and get in the car. It's a limo inside and everyone's there. The kids are in the back and the older in the front but then grandma appears in the back next to me. "Everyone buckled..." I am buckling ~wake up~

Walgreens

I don't remember much but apperantly I went to walgrenes with my family and it was like a value center type of place only super nice and an icecream parlor in the back and such. We went in just for icecream and when we left there was a booth to pay for parking. My mom got upset and said that we only came for icecream and they wouldn't let us leave. It was five dollars. Mom went inside and complained to the manager who was immovable even when my mom said she would never come back. The managers wife was on her husbands side until she realized that it was only five dollars. He was immovable and I don't know what my mom did but I got on a bicycle and rode home. [The only thing was that it was a completely different neighborhood from where I live and even the Walgreenes was in a different shoping center than I've ever seen before.] I rode my bike through side streets and it was night time.

Cursed and Running for my Life

I am in this car with a friend. He is buying a new car but it is cursed. I am sitting in the passenger seat when I see a tiny spider. I back up and cry out to him "there's a spider" Then another one appears and another. Then a whole mass of little spiders crawls out of the inside handle of the door. I am trapped. I open the door and leap out. Then I pull off my shirt and pants while standing on the sidewalk. I shake them a bunch of times to knock off all of the spiders. I shake myself and my hair. The spiders are off of me but about 8 or 10 spiders cling to my clothes. I run in the house and grab my can of spider killer. I spray them, but they still do not leave my clothing. They are after me and I don't know why, [I think it was a curse that was ment for someone else and I was in the wrong place at the wrong time.]

~dream skip~ I am a prisoner with this woman and this man. We are trying to escape and this fat lady is trying to stop us. [She had a name in the dream but I can't remember) We run and climb and end up at the top of this area. Very far down is the ocean. It seems to be about 4 stories down. The woman is afraid. I hop over the rail and dive. There is a small wall holing in some of the water near the ship area and I have to dive past that. I am a few feet from the wall on the ocean side. As soon as I slip into the water I turn myself around and start kicking my legs and place my arms at my side thinking 'rocket ship. zoom back up like a rocket ship' My lungs were burning and I wanted to breath, even underwater I was about to take a breath when I burst above the surface. The woman and man come up next to me. We all made it. The fat lady cries out and leaps. "Oh ____" We start swimming. When she hits the water a tsumami of water washes over us and pushes us far to the other side of the docking bay. [I don't know what else to call it but a docking bay. It was a large, dome like room with lots of different little boats and one bigger boat, like a battleship or something. But there were no piers to dock on. It was all deep water with the docking areas surrounded by walls on all sides but one where the ships could enter and ancher.] Past small boats and around walls. We swim and climb over a small wall on the other side and run and then jump into the water and swim again. There is a large open area where the ocean water comes in [It looks like the open bay from starwars on planet Hoth] We swim to that when we come up to a small, kyack type boat that has a sail. We climb in and I offer to pay the person who owns the boat when I recognize his face. He smiles and turns the boat, he's going to help us. We get out to sea.

I am in an appartment room with Sabyr and a few others. We are hanging out. [Sabyr is back from Utah or visiting from Utah, I couldn't quite tell.] He had gained a lot of weight and looked almost like Bert.] We are lounging on couches, talking when Sabyr changes clothes right in front of us, I partly look away to give him privacy. We are still chatting and all of a sudden I start singing the "Little Einstines" song. My dad is there singing too. As he sings I turn my head and we are in my house. I sit on the couch. Mom and Dad are in easy chairs and we fall asleep with the TV on. We have a couple of maids cleaning the house, a man and a woman. They turn off the TV before leaving. When mom wakes up she gets super upset about the maid turning off the TV that she is talking about firing them. They leave and I am alone in the living room. I hear breathing. I look on the couch but no one is there. I kneel down at one side of the couch and the sound is closer. I follow the cushins to the other side listening. Then there is a small bundle under a sheet in the far corner. That wasn't there before. I debate whether I should move the sheet, I am hoping it is Joshua, but he's not that small. ~wake up~

[Wow I havn't dreamed about that person in a long time. And especially not just having a casual conversation with others around almost like old times. I have no idea where the spider curse came from but I do know there was more to the dream.

When I recorded it I was still half asleep and all I wrote was "Attacked by Spider" and it was in bairly legable writting, it took me a long time to decipher the words. Usually I write more down but the only other thing I wrote down was "escape fat lady"

The escaping part was much like the old dreams I used to have when I was a teenager and younger.

I would have liked to remember more about the spider thing because there was something about the curse, and a way to fight the curse. It would have added to a great story.]

No one truely wants me

I am talking with my boss [don't know what my job is but somehow in the dream I know he is my boss], we are in a public bathroom for some reason. I am in short shorts and a nice top. I am waiting to see if he wants me, I was tired of making the moves and didn't want to be easy or desperate, could a guy really be attracted to me so much he would do anything to make me fall in love with him? As he leaves I realize that he doesn't want me. I am a little sad, when I hear a noise. Carefully I peek under the stalls to see if there is a pair of shoes. There is a naked guy, he had been looking up my shorts, they were short but not tight. There is a nasty leer on his face. I leave.

~dream skip~ Boss is yelling mad. I hadn't told him about the creepy guy but he had found out anyways.

~dream skip~ I am in a car with someone who is driving. We are looking for a place to park and can't find anything. We see a parking garage that says "lot full" but there is a strange feeling. We decide to check it out.

~dream skip~ We are walking around the bottom floor and there are no open spaces. We go to the top, roof, and there are tons of open spaces. It had been blocked off and abandoned. There were people sitting in some of the cars. At closer look we noticed they were dead. These cars were abandoned during the time of the "plague"

~Dream skip~ I am in this house, hiding from some guards. They are coming up to the house and the husband and wife get me under the floor boards. The guards barge in and search the place, nothing. Then one says "we haven't checked under the floor" I crawl to the edge, there is an opening to outside. Half my body is out but I stupidly want to watch. The guards look around and see nothing and then one turns his head and sees me, looking straight into my eyes. He yells out and I take off. I am running like crazy. Jumping fences, going through bushes, trying to be as hard to follow as possible. I end up across a street and as I run and try to hide or jump fences dogs are barking. There is no where to go, but to run.

~dream skip~ I see a garbage can, the chariot with the guards is getting close. I hide behind the garbage can and this guy sees me do it. He is staring at my hiding place saying, "What are you doing back there." over and over, getting louder. The guards come up and see me. I get out and they use these iron metal type hand cuffs (like from olden days for under the castle prison type cuffs.) I secretly notice that my wrists are too small and I could slip out. I stand in the back of the chariot and they are taking me away. We travel through this forest type place and I take off running, slipping out of the cuffs. I climb up a tree after circling around a bit all over. I hear dogs. I hide as far back in the leaves as possible so that I couldn't see anything myself, if I could see them there was a chance that they would see me. The dogs are all around sniffing and the guards are yelling, cursing and searching. I look at the cuffs still in my hand thinking I should have left them for the guards to find, to confuse them more, but then they would figure out that I could slip out of the cuffs, I would need a way to open them first. ~wake up~

Run Counter Clockwise

A large group of people are trying to get away from this dragon. We are in a huge building that has a hall that travels all the way around the building. somehow I know that the dragon is traveling counter clockwise. I warn the people and shout, getting them to move in the same direction so that they would avoid the dragon. They listen though grudgingly. It is a hard task to save people when they don't understand. A small group goes clockwise instead and I chase them down, worried. I see the dragon in a room off the hall but it is sleeping. I sneak the people past but not myself before the dragon awakes.

The dragon is immense. She/he is blood red but with a ruby type sheen on the scales. There are parts where sparkling gold type color is outlining some of the scales. A beautiful and frightening sight. I run to tell everyone but they are all sleeping on the floor, in rooms and in the hall. No one wakes up, they are all sluggish and half asleep and half awake. It is as if they were drugged or under a spell.

I turn back and I see this lady who is the dragons friend. The lady doesn't like me. The dragon can change shapes. A small bird, I am amazed. Then something else. Then a rhino that I am on the back, trying to escape from someone or something and the dragon is helping me. I feel the dragon in my mind telling me to meld with him. I lean down and my body begins to melt into the rhino's so that only half of me is showing. We are small enough to get through this doorway, just barely. Someone is mad and want's me dead, I can feel them right behind us...~wake up~

McDonald's, torture and the meaning

I just came from McDonald's drive through, only I don't have a car and after I made my order I realized this. I took off because I knew they didn't serve people outside of cars at the drive-thru. As I left through the bushes there was a gang of guys that were picking up their orders from the window, they weren't in a car...

~dream skip~ I want to go back to McDonald's, I need a McChicken sandwich or my head will burst. I am in this mall type place and the McDonald's is on the top floor. I go up some stairs. Then I am too high, then I am too low, I'm running around seeing stores on either side but never at the McDonald's. Then I see it in front of me...

~dream skip~ I am on a large flat roof, or out in the middle of nowhere on flat land. The wind is blowing like crazy and there is this rope that falls, hanging in front of me. I look up and there is this large dirigible in the air. I feel a sense of dread.

~dream skip~ This girl is tied, chained and unclothed. She is to be tortured mercilessly and parts of her skin are to be cut out. She no longer has any tears left to cry and awaits the new pain and terror, it will never end. I see her and then I realize that she is me. ~wake up~

[scattered, random and almost forgotten. I wasn't even going to post this one but then remembered that as far as I know, nobody follows this blog, it's too random and out there and nonsensical. Which works for me because this is the real me that hides behind the mask of reality. It's important to fit in, otherwise the world will destroy you and you will be left alone. I know that feeling, I have been destroyed and I have been alone. It is better to be alone and fake it, to suffer the inner tortures of the mind and be considered crazy than to be alone completely. These are thoughts that went through my head after I woke up. I wonder if it's in connection to the end of the dream with the girl being resigned to her tortuous fate. Death would have been a blessing and a relief, but death isn't that kind.]

Deception, Destruction and babies

There are 3 pretty girls who worry about their looks and have attitudes such as the popular girls in high school would. They work at some kind of job where they are on TV behind a desk live either every day or on a very regular basis. Last minute they call in this other girl, that also works the same job. She is told to come in immediately or lose her job. She comes in with sunscreen [That's what it was called in the dream but it could have been any type of white cream] all over her face. She is working hard to rub it in but the girls are telling her to get up their now. She doesn't know what to do. These girls knew she would be humiliated and that was why they called her in, to ruin her career, but they have seniority. I toss her a towel where she can quickly wipe off the cream. I get evil glares...

~dream skip~ This powerful guy of darkness is some type of freelance worker or vigilante who has to take out certain people. He is like a "Death" type of character only not "Death". He has a radar with glowing dots on it for the people he is supposed to kill. Only something strange is happening and the radar system has too many dots, so he follows one. He walks in this room and sees to people...one attacking the other. He has to choose and assumes the attacker is the one. So he sends out a fireball and incinerated the man who burns. I see as his head becomes a skull. It was the wrong guy. The guy curses under his breath and goes out again to find the person he is supposed to take out. He ends up killing 2 others that were not on his list to go. They were quick but horrible deaths. I come up and talk to him. I start asking him questions that he thinks about...his thoughts are connected to the radar...and some of the dots disappear. I keep asking questions until only one dot is on the screen.

I am with Lila in this mansion type house. We are in a large room conversing. She asks me something and I say that I had finally seen "Wicked". She then mentions that she has the sequel on DVD if I wanted to watch it. She said that "Son of a Witch" the sequel book was not worth the time. She then leaves explicit instructions that if I wanted to watch it that I had to go straight upstairs, not look around or get curious, otherwise she would not let me see the movie. I go upstairs, out of the corner of my eye I see her sisters and other people in this room, with the door open.

~dream skip~ I hear about a baby car, like for a train or something like that. I ask if each parent is responsible for their own child and was told that all the parents would help with all of the children. There were about 30 parents.

I am married [don't know who I am married too or if I'm sepparated and runing as a single mom or what. I never see the husband in the dream.] and it seems like every time I turn around I have another kid. I end up with 3 boys in a relatively short time and come to find out that my sister is having a boy as well which would give her two boys. I comment that I doubt any of us will have any girls, it doesn't seem to be in our genes or whatever.

I stay the night at ____'s house. It is a medium sized room moderately decarated but kept nice. [I would know the room if I saw it again] We are just laying on the bed, I am on my back. we are either watching a movie, starring at the ceiling or sleeping. Nothing happens, we stay on our separate sides of the bed. Then after what ever long period of time ____ rolls over me [like Rick did with Lila], staring in my eyes for a sec on top of me before ending up on the other side of the bed. As he finished rolling over I wrap my arms around him and rest my leg on his. He looks at me and matter of fact asks "Can I ask you a gray question." I nod. "How far are you willing to go." I state, also matter of factly, "That is a good question" Thoughts run through my head about if anything goes sour if it would ruin other friendships and prevent me from hanging out in certain groups, about no intercourse before marriage, if I'm ready to go that far and babies, since earlier in the dream I seem to be very fertile. I open my mouth to answer...

~wake up~

[I can not use the name of one of the characters here because people who know me will know who I am talking about and I can't give away my fake name for the sake of the privacy I have kept up with on this blog. It's too bad I woke up just as my subconscious was coming up with the answer. The Lord tells me things in my dreams sometimes but He doesn't give away what I should or should not do or what I might make the choice of doing. He allows me to come up with my own choice, even if He already knows what I will do. It used to get very frustrating when I lived my life wanting to please everyone, except myself, and wanting to follow everything exactly with out knowing what I wanted to do or what decisions I wanted to make. I believe it is part of being Bi-Polar because now that I'm on the med's I am looking at life in a different way and trying to figure out what I want to do and where I want my life to go. It's complicated but I feel more freedom and happiness than I have ever felt in my entire life.]